How Can I be true to myself?

Have you been in a situation wherein you just needed to go with the flow because it is whats supposedly to be right. Everyday routines done and even perfected....normal as it is but in my solitude, pain in my heart is unbearable.  Wanting to be freed and be heard but to no avail.  I still don't have enough strength to face the consequences awaiting for me with that truth. Tears, in discreet flows,  are my haven. God is my listener and a very dear friend is my consolation.  How will I ever hold on to this? That I dont know.



Liar! That first comes out in my mind as I write this blog.  I am not as you see me as I am.  As a person, I am a happy mom, a happy colleague and very much a happy friend but deep within, there's a hidden turmoil inside of me.  A reality that I cant let go coz letting it go would mean hurting a lot of people.  But for me, this is my great sacrifice for  the greatest love of my life, my only son.